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Friday, November 28, 2008 || Friday, November 28, 2008
im leaving sinagpore in exactly 8 simple days seh:Dhaha.nothing to do laa since im like superr superr bored:Dyesterday drop by DYA house:Dhad fun laa:Dlong time tak jumpe katerkan:Dhaha:Dbaru baek saket dok die:Dhaha:Dpics with her are gonna be uploaded soon as long as she puts it in her blog.lately,people hav been acting strangely.mum,dad,their friends.start calling me and start asking questions i dont even know of.what the hell man!sheesh.:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDi have no idea why i am so happy.i really swear that ive gone like; too RANDOM and stuff.baby,i swear i miss you like hell laa:Dwhere are you when i really need you?whenever i do something,its make me remind of you.i miss you,did you know that?please la,come back.lets rewind memories together laa:Di want to make it history:Di really am trying to change for the better did you know that?PLEASE?i swear from the deep deep deep deepest part of my heart,i really miss you.okay sarah,you are shpwing your patheticness again. jangan shiok sendiri laa.fine.lets not talk about him.i miss him like hell.i am so random:Dchange SKINN:Dyeah.i'll find a naice one lah:Dwee;Djust wait and see yeah?
BYEEEEEEEEEEE:D
R A W R ;D
hmm
Thursday, November 27, 2008 || Thursday, November 27, 2008
ahha:Dguess what?im gonna take new pic for like the bus pass and make new ezlink:Dafter that,go change phone:Di hope ah:DLAWL:Dreally ah,GREAT.haha:DC902,here i come:Dhee~i am so bored with like nothing to do.so currently updating lah,here and now.haha:Deditted more pichhers:DZAFIFAHH baby,ive submitted to you already:Dhaha:Danymore,anyone?finally get to change phone:Dhow gerek.and i guess its all going to come back then?YOU,i want you back.i really do.i can change but you gotta gimme time.DEAR, please do so.i really miss you, did you know that?i miss those "By,u dah bngn?" msges.i really do.and i miss those moments when you called me and i just instantly melt just from hearing your voice:di miss your laugh,crap,messages; EVERYTHING!i really realy really miss it.hope you now realise what you've done.i miss talking to you about almost every other thing.______,______,______.i really miss you lah man:Dmsg me soon.msg me now.msg me again.RAWR:DLabels: i miss you like hell and you know i do.
FUGGING life.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008 || Tuesday, November 25, 2008
FUG life.how many times,how many lies.you tried to depend on me but im trying to stop you from doing that cause its not worth it.what kind of person are you huh?you told me to message you only if there is something useful.and so i did listen to you.but guess what?you werent a man of your own words.you suck,did you know that?i hope you now realise that what you did is wrong,aites?we were doing great as ABG ADQ angkat but now,IDK.those memories meant DEEPLY to me but guess what?you didnt know,did you?you are going through a very hard life.i know that but you cant just pressure people like that,did you know that?i know you are angry and hot tempered but you got to control like it like i did.say all your crap but really, i should have known that YOUR LOVE WAS JUST ANOTHER LIE.what the fug is this huh,______?what the fug.thanks to FANNA who actually made me feel better last night.______,can you just try and treasure those DEARLY BELOVED moments we had?huh/you walked in and out of my life and that is something i hate.I HATE PEOPLE WHO JUST WANDER INTO OUR LIVES and not knowing the situation around us.what the hell is this huh?shit ass.walking in and out of my life is what you like to do.thanks yo.NEXT TIME IF YOU WANT TO HURT MY LIFE,HURT ME MORE AND MORE,DAY BY DAY.I WANT YOU TO DO THAT.because I KNOW THAT YOU LOVE SO MUCH TO SEE ME GET HURT AND HURT almost any other day.i know,i know.i have mixed feelings right now.feel like dying,laughing,get angry and just SHUT OFF MY BRAIN.i want to eat as much drugs as i want and just let it work out.its better if i die.but wait,YOU'RE JUST A BOY.you dont know how it hurts,do you?i dont care whats going through your mind but i hope you know what youre doing.i hope you are feeling happy bour your own decision.haha.good luck ah in life.i hate you,you bloody FUGGING FUGGER.RAWR.Labels: i dont think im okay but i do know that im happy.
ive learnt something
Friday, November 21, 2008 || Friday, November 21, 2008
i have learnt to never trust guys.guys are a lie.just follow your heart and know that there is going to be a guy that actually is waiting for you.its hard to hear that they want to break up woth you because of a bloody stupid fcuking reason.i really want to trust you but can you prove to me that you can be the one?i really have tried to trust you but are you really proving it to me?ive been hurt b you alot,did you know that?i dont know i want to hate you or trust you again.i feel very very hurt tau, _ _ _ _ _ _ .i just want to be so inactive for a while.at least give me a week.ill msg people when i want to.till here and i think i am going to update more.RAWR.i have no mood to tell anyone anything.i hate my life because of you.i really hate you.i want to spit it out to you but i just dont know how.did you know that?i am so fucking pissed with you.stay away from me.i dont want to sse your face again.R A W R.
hating my FCUKING life this very moment.
|| Friday, November 21, 2008
why does this all have to happen to me?what have i done to deserve all this?do i really need this right now?dont tell me just because of a fcuking stupid reason you wanna go through this.you have hurt me more than enough _ _ _ _ _ _.i knew since the day we were together it wa snever gonna work but guess what?i really thought we could go on and on.i never even think i really deserve this.the last think i need is that you calling me.that is last last last thing i ever needed.i dont know whats going through your brain right now but i just dont wanna be disturbed.i dont wanna talk.i dont wanna discuss the matter with anyone.i just feel like shutting off my brain and just keep things to myself.its like im hangingoff from a cliff and just slipping.i know im gonna fall soon but i dont know when.i dont know how much longer i can take all this.i hurting me all over.i tried to NOT think about you but its not going to get me anywhere.i remembered all the things we have done together and all.i treasure and i miss.i just doesnt want to throw this all away.*i want to break up with you because i dont want anything to happen to you.*am i going to ever trust you and believe you in this?i really feel super super lousy and i just dont want to talk okay?i want to just let my brain shut off.i wanna go eat some drugs to make my brain just stop thinking.i feel useless and i want to die.i really really really want to die.R A W R.
oh my god.
Thursday, November 20, 2008 || Thursday, November 20, 2008
oh my god.i am so hating my life right now.i dont even know if i really want to laugh it out,cry my eyes out or even just talk about it with someone.i really dont know tau.thanks to FANNA who actually tried to help me out.so yeah.my brother is a fucking bloody guy.irritating me a lot.ask me this and ask me that.shit man.so yeah.sheesh.but his is a smart phone.so i actually don't care tau.yeah.you know,i keep on wondering.why am i so careless?why am i so loud?am i irritating other people?do i really belong in this world?am i really making the right decision?am i really making choices that i really want?i just feel like a piece of the puzzle that doesn't belong with the world together.sometimes i wonder why am i borned in this world.is this how my parents want me to be?is this how my parents brought me up?do they brought up a child to be rude to them,talk back at them?am i really want my parents want me to be?does my brothers look up at me thinking that their sister is another one of those sick little kids who thinks they can get anything they want?am i treating him right?am i disturbing him when i shouldn't be?am i being such an irresponsible person?am i going to turn out to be a horrible person?am i going to ever succeed in life?am i going to ever get my parents love?are they ever treating me right?are they doing this to make me realise that they love me?are they like,love my brothers more than they love me because i am not as smart as them?WHAT AM I DOING IN THIS WORLD?
DO I REALLY BELONG IN THIS WORLD?do i really know where am i heading towards to?do i really like the life i am having now?you see,there are many questions i have and i really want to know the truth.i really want the truth and no more secrecy.god.someone really close to me,please call me.i really need to talk to you.i dont care if its really him,her or her.anyone who reads this,you should know what im feeling right now.call me soon please.the last person i need is ______.R A W R.
YOO:D
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 || Wednesday, November 19, 2008
so yeah,UPDATING:Dyesterday i was like talking to SOMEONE in particular and the background was noisy cause HE was with his friends:Dhaha:Dhe asked me if i was free on like friday.i said yeah,why?he ajak me go BUGIS and PENIN dok.want to go buy something.IDK what he wanted ah.horrible:Dand yes,FANNA became my companion yesterday:Dhaha.talked on the phone,talk crap.what am i gonna do?i am so bored.i am at the comp,his prepaid is almost finished and i am so bored.sheesh.oh,i like HIS voice:Dhaha:Dtoo hoooooot i tell you:Di melted on the phone with him.oh my god.i am starting to speak singlish.shit man.read books.the only way is that i gotta read and read and read.i dont care what book.as long as it is still a book i dont mind actually.able to log i to friendster already.
i dont know what actually happen to friendster seh.was under maintenance and should be better but i notnhing actually happen.shit.so bored and so random.what am i going to do?
definitely listening to songs on youtube aint helping me out.try finding a new skin but it aint working.watching the telly aint helping me at all as well.WHAT AM I GONNA DO?people are still busy sleeping now i guess.some claims that their prepaid are super low.some say that they got other plans.what am i going to do?KAKAK!where are you?read this paragraph.sis it has been a long time since we met.i miss the times we had enjoyed ourselves and just talked about lfe and other personal stuffs.i miss you like hell and i want to meet you again:Dreallyreallyreally.all the ups and doens we have been through,the cries and the laughter.the pictures,the memories and EVERYTHING.your sarcasticness,our company,all the memorable things we did together.i miss your crapiness and the cute pretty face and EVERYTHING.i miss you imissyou and i miss you!wherever you are,just contact me after reading this.no tagging to be done.i really need to talk to you badly :(so good luck and stay pretty always:Dalrighties:Dhaha(:finally let some thing go.to people i miss damn alot;dont worry that much.things are going to get better and better.have fun and enjoy it to the fullest cause before you know it,its schooling already(:good luck in every way.haha:Di like that part man:Dand not to forget the chorus as well:Dwee(:i miss people i love so much:Dhaha(:wait for secon post people:DR A W R :D
boredboredbored
Friday, November 14, 2008 || Friday, November 14, 2008
alrighties:Dsuddenly,i feel so bored.yeah.and i am sick of this world.i tried to log in to friendster today and guess what?I CANT.shit man.damn.and this is so random but lets go.NURUL FARHANA:babe,i really miss you like shit ah.i miss you damn alot lah seh.when will we ever meet again?how can i ever live without seeing you?haha:Dcan you msg me ASAP?nownownow.love ya.NURUL NADIA:BABE:Doh shit.yesterday msged you but not enough ah.i need moremoremore.hahaha:Daku rindu kau:Dalotlotlot.love ya.NORADILA:babe,kau lagi aku rindu.haha:Dwe have been through alot ah seh.nak klua tapi tak jadi?apekehel?msg me again lah deng!love ya.MUHAMMAD SYUKRI:ah,this one,best.miss this guy like shit manx:DMSG ME LAH DENG:Dyou know right i miss you?hahahahahahahahaha:Denjoyed the times we crapped together and LOL-ing together.i wanna meet you:Dlove ya.so basically that are the 4 people i miss.hahaha:Dand i missed todays HEROES.dammit.hahaha:Dand the holidays are getting more and more boring actually.aku tak caye dok my mum actually reads my diary.OMG ah.shit of a kkind.bye ah.not a decent post.and i think there is something wrong with me.RAWR:Dand for the time being,i cant actually log in to friendster.so comments will take a while.thank you:DR A W R :DD
finally,i am trying to update.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008 || Tuesday, November 04, 2008
people,HE ROCKS:D
and no to forget,the YOUNGEST CHAMP this year:D
woohooooo(:
hahahahahahahaha:D
thruthfully,i am becoming more and more random.
i don't know what is really up with me.
i swear i am really going mad.
haha:D
ROTTING,ROTTING,ROTTING.
pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft.
i hate it when i get so bored.
and it actually rained just now.
imissawholelotdamnofpeople.
haha:D
been trying to see what phone is the best and i really gotta say,C902 baby.
iwannabuyit and i swear.
oh,i hate typing.
it tends to suck already.
FCUK.
haha:D
LEWIS HAMILTON is the best.
so damn RANDOM.
byeeee:D
RAWR:D