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Tuesday, December 30, 2008 || Tuesday, December 30, 2008
omg,sorry long time no update:Dno time,again and again:Dand yes,ive been very busy getting ready for school:Dwent to converse sale just to buy 2 pairs for me:Daisyah;aku sayang kau laa. dah letak daa:Dfaila;ive been great:D you?saiful;ive linked you already:D tried to tagg but cant. why?Nadd;i'll relink you up soon:D just you wait and see:Dand yes,the boredom:Dsoon baby,soon:Djust one day to the walk and 3 days to schooling:Dhuhu:D i like and love:Dnext year gerek aku hharap:dnew juniors,lesser burden and SYF:Dmendak:DDsheesh.BORED:DDDDDlayan me anyone:DRAWR:D
THANK GOD.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008 || Wednesday, December 24, 2008
THANK GOD im back and can update.sorry long time no update.was at my aunt house for some reasons and thankfully i hope i can update more laa.im shivering right now.
and last night,i broke down again.
i teared up last night,not knowing why and what cause it.
its stil raining outside and its like cold.
cannot take it laa as they say.
just logged in to friendster only to find more and more comments.
good laa atleast.
to that guy,babe,i missyou. msg me soon please (:
its pathetic the way my aunt treats me.
like as if im some 3 year old when im not.
like i cant have my own privacy like that.
and now,aku bored:D
bloghopped to others blog,tengok kalau dah update blom.
HEHEHEHEHEHE:D
aku blom kasi TAG!
ishishish.
i know i want to update but nothing to type.
lols,how?
i want to change phone!
but haffta make new card.
shitto ditto.
yesterday,i swore i had no mood to eat.
just sit,drink COCA COLA ZERO and read:D
i like the book.
thanks for the memories:DDD
haha.
bro playing ps2 while im here doing nothing except sitting in front of the comp and doing this:D
AND TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS:D
haha.
any presents yet?
i wanna download songs:D
and yes,ive updated my friendster which means i added new photos and replied all comments:D
now,to download more song:D
haha:D
boreboredbored:D
the holidays are ending soon.
next year is just another roller coaster ride thats gonna take you on a journey beyond your imaginations.
sarah state there like as if she understands it:D
hahahahahaha:DDDD
downloaded and guess what!
i was searching throught the lappy and i found a skin:D
haha.
old one laa.
gurantee not nice:D
i wanna change skin!
R A W R :D
WOOHOO:D
Sunday, December 14, 2008 || Sunday, December 14, 2008
im back and better than ever:Dhaha.god,i swear i cursed alot and sulked alot and all.but it was good laa.at least dah luper pasal dier.and yeah,i fell way way way better.i experienced the whole indonesian kampong stuffs and GOD,was it horrible.slipper stuck with mud for like many zillion times and i swear,it was ugly.battery was always dead and had to charge it.sheesh.the plugs there are like SUMPAH different than ours.two pin plugs and like,my charger is like 3!crap.and people,ignore those stupid emo posts.they are all crap laa.SUMPAH i dont know waht i was thinking then.luckily my brain cells got control of my emotions and feelings and i've tried to harden them.yeah.and when i was there,it felt like a total adventure:Dsumpah it was gerek and all but fugging tough laa living like that.and i missed my bed alot!i mean,i slept on a super dang hard besd and sored my whole body.on the first night i swore i didnt sleep.i mean,slept at three and awake at four.NONSENSE.then,discovered a hole new place at the back and i realised i was like feeding the fish.i even heard the rooster COCKLE-DOOOL-A-DOO:Dhaha.yeah.the night was like tough but we manage to atleast lepak outside the house.went in and went out,in and out,in and out.alot and alot and alot.chase after my cousin who was like only 19 and um,tall and muscular?yeah.and he is great okkay!haha.went to a HOT SPRING!went into an ICE SKATING ring!went into a FANTASY WORLD(DUNIA FANTASI)!yeah.in overall,alot.and nope,i dont have any pictures.battt almost died laa.had to charge but dont know where.luckily my cousin had it covered.haha:Dand got home this morning at 1++.unpacked and dived straight for the bed:Donly to wake up at 10 and then,slept at 2.woke up at 5.30++ and here i am blogging:Dand yeah,the sore is still there.logged in to friendster and replied all comments and here i am all alone in the house.luckily got kak FIDAH.haha.i love you laa sis.hehehe:Dwhen i came hoe was like IBU's birthday.celebrated at breeks.mum,happy birthday laa. im proud of you to like actually control us and take care of work and our family. i dreamt about you just now and it was actually hurting me inside that you actually sacrificed for us. you are the best mother i could ever have had and thanks for going through alot of trouble raising me,siddique and matin. i'll make you proud of all your kids and it's a promise. reallly,ibu,iloveyou!haha.yeah.so now,im bored.back to being bored.maybe i've pushed myself a little too hard.i should just let me go,and forget about him.haha.but it seems like i dont care anymore.i can talk about him as long as i want.and ive got no sense of being jealous and all.and i was pushing too hard that i actually felt like i was the one who was always been needing the atention.god,am i such a sick kid.but i changed now.all emotions are hidden under this mask and im never letting it escape like i did before.and ive learnt to control my tomgue now.i try not to use any more coarse language.and yeah,now,im downloading:Dtag more laa.tag more:DR A W R :D
LAWL.
Friday, December 5, 2008 || Friday, December 05, 2008
YADAYADAYADA.like i care what you say.KIDDING.i take words seriously.mess with me and you are dead.ZOMG.ive got horrible intentions now.thanks to AMIRAH baby yesterday:Dand SHAWAL as well?yeah.download song off the internet already:Dmp3raid.com/yourmp3.net :Dfind your songs there:Dgee,i dont know what to type:Dim like so excited to go?yeah,get away with life and all.1 DAY AND STILL COUNTING:D:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDso so so so so so very happy lah:Dpeople,ill try and cheer up and um,forget about it alright?i'll try and post better stuffs and yeah,its gonna be a promise.TIKOS sayang,i promise you.KAK FIDAH SAYANG,i promise you.this i promise you...haahahahaha.DIRAHH BABY,cheer up laa:DDYLA DEAR, SUMPAH aku rindu kau nak giler:DFANNA,i'll try and get it all sorted out.AMIRAH,aku try dulu laa,orang tengah.hee:Di swear im gonna be missing loads and loads of people:Dand i'll try and take many many sceneries taww:Dthen,i go upload here:Dand friendster as well?FANNA,have a safe trip dear. i miss you like hell and when can we even meet? lepak with me sometimes:D i miss you like so badly ): eh,baek pe kite? aku pegi kau pegi. aku laek kau alek. baek sangat pe? haha. message when you are off out of towning:D WEE(:yeah.so i guess i wont be updating for a while laa.but that doesnt mean you cant tag me.TAGTAGTAG:Di want you to tag!yeah:Di miss alot and alot and alot of people:D
SHITSHITSHIT.
Thursday, December 4, 2008 || Thursday, December 04, 2008
HmmWhoaaa OohhhYeahhYou Said It Wasn'tGonna Be Like It Was BeforeThen It Happened AgainPushing Me Back Out The DoorThought It Would Be For real This TimeLove Me Forget About The SignsSo Now What Do I DoNow, That I Know That We're ThroughWish That I Could Move OnCan't Let Go, It's Too StrongJust Like That And Then You're GoneIs This How You Wanted It To BeEverything You Had To SaySent The Tears Right Down My FaceNow I'm Trying To EscapeThe MiseryWhy Don't You Love MeThe Way I Loved YouIt Feels So CrazyCause I Dunno What I Did To YouIf You're Gonna Hurt MeThen Do It QuicklyCause I'm Tired Of CryinIf You Don't Wanna Stick AroundThen, Baby, Forget About MeToo Late, SorryI Didn't Even Have The ChanceYou Said You Were HappyBaby, I Don't UnderstandGave You Everything You Asked ForAnd Was Ready To Give A Lot MoreI Would've Given The WorldRight In The Palm Of Your HandWish That I Could Move OnCan't Let Go, It's Too StrongJust Like That And Then You're GoneIs This How You Wanted It To BeEverything You Had To SaySent The Tears Right Down My FaceNow I'm Trying To EscapeThe MiseryWhy Don't You Love MeThe Way I Loved YouIt Feels So CrazyCause I Dunno What I Did To YouIf You're Gonna Hurt MeThen Do It QuicklyCause I'm Tired Of CryinIf You Don't Wanna Stick AroundThen, Baby, Forget About MeBoy, My Heart Was TrueAnd That You Can't DenyDon't Be A FoolAnd Walk Away From All The LiesIt's Up To YouCause Heaven Knows I've TriedTell Me You're Still In LoveYeahhhh OhhWhy Don't You Love MeThe Way I Loved YouIt Feels So CrazyCause I Dunno What I Did To YouIf You're Gonna Hurt MeThen Do It QuicklyCause I'm Tired Of CryinIf You Don't Wanna Stick AroundThen, Baby, Forget About MeForget About Me...Forget About me..second post,second post:Dyeah.now,its the song above.next,what else?GOD,i swear i want you right now.just a message or a call.ANYTHING.please,its killing me.ZAFIFAHH baby,thanks for the messages:Dbut you so sound like him.is it a trend?sheesh.BAZEEL/BAZIL:your name is too obvious and your link from asshida blog:D and you are like the only one who starts with the letter 'B' in my links:D haha. first ah,first.i want to download songs but yourmp3.net is like under some renovation.shitt:Danyway,im sick of life and i need him.a small amount of his dosage will make me feel better,i guess.______,______,______.CRAP.R A W R :D
shitshitshit.
|| Thursday, December 04, 2008
i would like to say my thanks to those who cared and concerned and love.thanks eh.alot.apeape aku buat,DIE DIE DIE.why must it be like,HIM always?i mean,im starting to hate life already tau.
things happen when you least expect it.yeah,its true.log in to friendster also panic.but what can i do?no one else is the same like you.
bros keep teasing me with your name,maid keep on disturbing me with that name.do i need more?i love to hear your name but at the same time,it makes me sad and angry and JEALOUS as well.its natural to be jealous but this type of jealousy has never been so hard to control.and every one there who comments you make me so jealous but like atigah say; ive gotta move on.i cant just spent my life thinking about you always.ive got more important things to do but whatever i do,my mind just keep thinking about you.and when i think about you,my hearts just pumps faster and slower at the same time.and then,your images just keep flashing in my mind and all the fun times we had together.im allergic to blue but blue is our fave colour.im allergic to 10 but that was the date where we got together.im allergic to 195117015 but that is what our numbers add up to be.i hate that date 101108 but that was when we fell in love.god,s much as i want to be with him,i keep recounting what he did to me.i cant forget this message 'Ngah brd psl tk nan my babe. My baby plak?'.i keep repeating that message over and over again.amongt all the other messages you gave me,that was the one i can never forget even if i want to forget about it.sumaph aku rindu kau cam nak mati.i could have given the world right in the palms of your hands.haa,sarah,PATHETIC laa.but i just cant stop.i know its hurting me insede but i really cant stop forgetting you.you're on my heart just like a tattoo;i'll always have you.seeing you makes my heart stop and go,beating like a nervous wreck and beating slow like as if you could just take my soul away.you asked me if i was single or not.i said yes and told oyu that i was waiting for the right guy to sweep me off my feet.i dont know wether you were the right one or not but i feel it between us.when im with you,i just dont care about whats happening around us expect just you and me.give me more lovin then i've ever had.make it all better when i'm feelin sad. tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.make me feel good when i hurt so bad. barely gettin mad, im so glad i found you.i love beingaround you. you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)theres only one thing two do three words four you.i love you.(i love you)theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do.i love you.(i love you) give me more lovin from the very start.piece me back together when i fall apart. tell me things you never even tell your closest friends. make me feel good when i hurt so bad. best that i've had. im so glad that i found you.i love bein around you. you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)theres only one thing two do three words four you.i love you.(i love you)theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do.i love you.i love you(i love you) you make it easy, its easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you (i love you) theres only one way two say those three words thats what ill do i love you (i love you) i love you i love you. one two three four i love you.(iloveyou)i love you(i love you)sumpah nie lagu untok kau.really really really.2 DAYS AND COUNTING:DHAAAAHAHAHAHA:Dtake care world and take care earthlings:Dill be gone before you even know it.hhahahahaahahahahaha:DI LOVE YOU,______:Di really do:Dbaby come back:DR A W R :DLabels: i really do need you and i want you back baby. badly.
bleah:D
Wednesday, December 3, 2008 || Wednesday, December 03, 2008
TODAY WAS A SWEAT:Dguess who i met today and stared?ader lah orang tuu:Dgo find out who yourself:Dand i saw ZAFIFAHH baby:Dhaha:Dwent to school at 11.45:Dwent there, i called FANNA.ask her which gate to go in from.\main gate laa:Dshe say not a good time to come cause HE was there.i thought who,so just hapy go lucky go in.then,go in, i saw FANNA and talked to her.go queue up for buying the books, i saw him.didnt expect it but was sweating like hell.then,we stared laa.in any other peoples eyes right,in his i saw hatred.really ah.but i really didnt expect to like see him there ah.i thought he went the day before or anything but WHATEVER.buy my books,kesian sia i look at him.nak beli baju pon susah.i tried to stop myself from laughing but in the end, after that, LOL all the way home.so yeah:Dthen, chatted with ASS on the phone:Dfunny ah KAU.and then,waited till 4 which i logged in and viewed someone profile and ended here:Dwoah.i dont know if im like being random and stuff but to tell you the truth, i really feel like so bad and so sad.sumpah aku dah tak tawu ape nak tules.DYLA,ive followed you and the sumpah sumpah thingy hunneyy:Dhaha.went to friendster only to find out that i got comments and a picture from ZAFIFAHH:Di like her name laa:Dreplied everyone's comment and here:D3 days and counting:Dand after that,good bye Singapore and hello Indonesia:DD:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDomg.ive got it all figured out.on the 10th,ill cry and wait and see.ill see if he msges,if he remembers andthen CRY.yeah.00:17.ill wait tau.i dont care.laen kali jangan stare laa oi.i saw the hatred in your eyes and i can tell.whatever laa sarah.right.i miss those days laa when i wake up and knowing that it was you:Dsheesh.bye world:DR A W R :D
omgomgomg.
Monday, December 1, 2008 || Monday, December 01, 2008
i swear that everything that im doing makes me remind myself about him.i swear and swear and swear.and everytime i think about him,im like gonna cry my eyes out.shit ah.but im telling you,the song 'dear god' is like so touching ahhim like hearing it over and over and over again.haha:Dbut really ah,i miss him like hell.shit lah oi!come back laa baby.please?for me?i am really really really sorry for what i did to you.i dont care what it takes,i want you back indeed.i want you back in my life.i really really do.please?alaa,shit la.5 days and still counting:Dand then im off to KAMPONG:Dwhich is actually in like indonesia laa people:Dpathetic siakk aku maken menjadi.life is getting more and more mendak by the moment:Dbaby,come back:Dhaha.UPDATED laa oi!R A W R :D
