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Tuesday, April 28, 2009 || Tuesday, April 28, 2009
tah eh, if i am one, what does that makes you?not one?they talk about you, they talk about me, they talk about everyone.everyone in this school is a backstabber, no offences made.but it is true.humans will always stay human, thats why im not gonna be with you all anymore.im sorry kays, but its for the best.but woman, dont you dare call me up any of these night wanting last hope from me.i may be in the play but i aint your friend.im turning my back on all of you, OKAY?you wanted to end it, so, lets end it.aku da tak nak heran ah, ape kau nak bobual, nak cakap.they wants me and i need them.so dont you dare say im giving a cold shoulder on you all.im doing you a favour here.
woah.
Monday, April 27, 2009 || Monday, April 27, 2009
okay, todaaaaaaay, i sweat sweat and more sweat.until now im still sweating okay?yeah, i know that just now i did my NAFPA test.no, it wasnt that hot until you actually come out of the hall.DAMN was it humid and sticky.FUG, i was like damn tired and i cant find my friend, which we ended up taking the bus, my journey all the way home.so whatever, met DINI:Dyeah baby, long time no talk to her?haha, yeah, so we talked and walked all the way home.laugh laugh, talk about 2.4 and all.-.- i know.and im listening to Bella's Song, and DAMN is it lovely.i love Pianos okay, especially when it comes up with a song that is so FABULOUS.what the ...? i know.hahaha, okay, you can say im addicted:Dbut what can i do?NOTHING, thats right, LOL.until i learn to play the piano of course:Dyeah, thats what i wanna do, play the piano DAMN well.continue until i can play my own piece:Paiming PIANO and NEW PHONE and SLR CAMERA and LAPPIE and BREAKING DAWN and MIDNIGHT SUN and IPOD(BIG one) and MORE CRUMPLER:Dwooooooooooooh!i want, anyone wanna help me buy?hee, can can can?for my birthday anyways, i want more presents:Dwhat the ... ?i know. hahahahahahahahaha, im boreeeeedd:Danyone wanna layan me?MESSAGE ME PLEASE:DBYEEEEEEEEEEE:Dill update more if i hhave the time but not tomorrow i guess.R A W R
yeah.
Sunday, April 26, 2009 || Sunday, April 26, 2009
maybe i have to, maybe i dont.everyday, we see new people, make new friends.i dont know.so, what happened today?came back from religious class only to realise, i had a PURE adrenaline rush.not the Twilight one but yeah, adrenaline rush."Yeah, I had an adrenaline rush. It's very common, you can google it."HEE:D, that is random.I saw my friend's sister being hit by a motorbike but wasnt even injured at all.only a small cut on the toe and thats all.i mean, the girl is like way small, smaller than me a bit and she was like thrown from the bike and wasnt even injured.okay, enough about that.but please people, treasure your life way more preciously these days.im really get that PARANOIA again, the one about dead people.please ah, i dont want to lose VERY SUPER DUPER important people in my life.really, i dont, not even one.so, back to on top, i really had a long day (?) i guess.went religious class, got home, went westmall.yeah, must go out with THAW WAN WAI more often:D"We all cant be freakishly strong sometime, you know."yeah, like that."I feel very protective of you."i dont know kay, really.dearest LB, i missed you okay? Where have you been? I mean, its good that you want to change but i dont want you to change in that way that you know, you become like salman. More emo, i mean, i missed the old him. And i missed the NURUL FARHANA ive known for the past NINE YEARS. LB, you know what you mean to me? We were at each other's side during the UPS and DOWNS we had. We have gone through good and bad times, but your unconditional love, was always on my mind. Youve been there from the start for me and your loves has always been, true as can be. You know what i mean. Aku rindu kau, fana. I really do. And i love you okay? Please, change for the better is good. I know that we all have that time where we change but you should know what are the categories that you need to improve on. For once, i rely-ed on you, you were my listening ear, helping hand, leaning shoulder buddy, friend, sister. I miss those days where we actually lepaked bawah blok, have fun, laugh together, talk together, smile together, be loud together, shout and crap and all the other sweet memories we had.just think it through kay?come lepak more with me and kakak, plan more trips together and yank me out for a day off where i get to destress with the both of you.we can go anywhere, anywhere.as long as i get to spend quality time with the both of you and get to enjoy the warmth of everything, im happy."I mean, hang out and have fun."gah, i cant talk about fana here.its like i have to recover for a few more months and then i can like totally feel nothing about her, its that what you want me to do?like the way i had to take my mind of Syukri?does it have to be that way?i dont know but i guess so.guess i have to to start to avoid soen people eh?whatever it is, school is still way important.oh yeaaaa, CONGRATS LEWIS FOR WINNING:Dthank god, THREE WIN STRIKE:Dnext year must do again, then COOOOOOOLIOO, what the ...?okay, BYEEE.till next time, R A W R.PS, come back.Labels: i miss you and i love you.
yeah, an update.
Saturday, April 25, 2009 || Saturday, April 25, 2009
im literally being forced to update.
LITERALLY okay, not really being forced.
its just that people want me to update, thats all.
especially miss NURUL ARDILLA.
jyeahs, her:D
so, Mother Tongue Paper 1 and 2 has ended:D
how cool, yes, COOL.
i was like freezing my way through in paper 1 but managed to ENJOY the coolness, not like the rest who were practically moving about in their seats trying to keep warm.
and the best part was that WE, the NA and EXP stream, dont need to bring any book to study at all.
it was like we had the day off.
coming to school only to have exam.
HAAAAAH:D
and it was FUN:D
gah, i miss people.
especially _____, FAILA:D, and everyone else that i dont want to mention.
that underline is NOT him but a girl.
if you are reading this, you should know who i am talking about.
okay, i want breaking dawn and i dont care.
i want it, im desperate:D
haha, it nice though, Bella turned into a vampire who learns her new powers, a shield.
YEAH, like a shield.
protects you from the bad and ugly stuffs:D
cool huh?
i wanna be a vampire plus a werewolf and and human as well:D
haha, anyone wants to help me, a voluntary basis thing?
LOL, so, syf is done, Bronze.
thats all, enough for us to ask.
fine, deela, ive updated:D
R A W R :D
OH.
Sunday, April 19, 2009 || Sunday, April 19, 2009
looked back at the past, wondering, along those lines, what happened.people changed and so did i.i tried to see what i have outgrew but i have NO idea what did.its like im a newborn vampire or something.like grew out from a skin, a shell.it's like seeing the world in a new better perspective and more.i cant believe that im really here and doing this.and i get that feeling alot.even being plugged with headphones listening to Afterlife by Avenged Sevenfold, i get to look back at the past and discover the mistakes and the realisation starts."some sort of frenzy begins..."yeah, like that statement.we feel the change but unable to detect where it is all really coming from.thats right, its like that.so what happened yesterday?i played-literally- beach volleyball.hell, i did!yeah, ran around the whole court only to realise the scorching heat from the sand.im darker now, tanner i guess.i went there with my dad-yes, my dad.we were like the earliest to come, along with Ms. Jing Jing, the creator behind the event.yeah, i met people from all over the world.a mixture actually.a woman-gorgeous and tall, dark, tan-indian yet educated at Canada.another woman-qquite shoet, shorter than me, fairer and cute-a Korean yet educated in America.sick right?- tell me about it.i really have no mood to laugh or anything.i think you can even put on Twilight and i wont even respond.i wont even go gugu-gaga over him like i usually would.its like my feelings are number than usual.i cant even laugh, not even one tiny bit.maybe i got off the wrong side of the bed this morning.maybe, maybe not, i dont know.no mood to blog already la kay?i wanna go off.downloads off the internet and i dont care.like, bye.
YOOO:D
Thursday, April 16, 2009 || Thursday, April 16, 2009
OKAY, sorry for the lack of posts:Dcannot go in comp, SADDED):sheesh, dad is harsh:Danyways, here to update.nothing hardly change in school ionly some people change.big dissapointment that we got BRONZE for malay dance syf.we worked very hard, seriously:Dand i was like really enjoying myself okaaaaay!even my mom says so:Dand LEWIS WON AGAIN:Dim so proud:Dhaha, but sadly, i cant hear the screams from NUS to CCK stadium.and im trembling:Didk why but i am trembeling:D"It's late," he said again, murming, almost crooning now, his voice smoother than silk. "Sleep, my Bella. Dream happy dreams. You are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours.Sleep, my only love."OMG, it sooooooo sweet okaaaaaaaaay!and i swear to god edward is as hot as ever:Dhaha, gaaaaah!and guess what?im as engrossed in the movie as much as the book okay:Dhaha, thanks to JERRINE tan for bringing me BREAKING DAWN:Dwooooh:Dand now i have to go. and i will be back, i promise:Dlike edward siaaa:D
