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oh hello! :D has it really been more than a few weeks? I know right? dreadfully dead. seems like Twitter and facebook plus tumblr is alive. Oh how I wished Blogger followed tumblr style. but nevertheless, im still as faithful as I am for Blogger eh sorry! ((: lets get cracking now shall we? it has been a while.

right. so right this moment, as im typing here at 1851 hours, I AM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING. yes, literally studying. SA2 -> 1st October sia. And here i am, slacking and typing this and doing my own sweet things at my own sweet time. I really do owe Him alot of labour time, seriously. oh gosh.

time is super slow this whole week. but I bet next week is even slower. :> Believe me. ah yes, even the PSLE's are coming damn the good old days. Slack like shit although time's running out. oh dear. damn it was nice. hehehe. but I hated the pressure then, but I love the pressure now. Its like super fun. Why? its just fun, sadist me. Really though. I AM A SADIST. not entirely true, but somewhat somehow, I am.

okay okay. let me just get straight to the point here eh. so you're telling me that you have bog dreams to make our community, the Melayu Community in Singapore more up risen and more improved than the Chinese community but here you are, dressing like some prostitute or kids that lived by the road side and wanna walk like you really got that swag on and dress up like the occasion is yours. retarded ah? dress up like taik, kate budak melayu. Budak melayu pakai ape? baju kurung, yeah sure no more baju kurung, panas la itu ini. But baju ketat? Tak panas? LEBIH PANAS APE. and if you wear long sleeve, I can still take it, short sleeve and you comlplain its hot. Why? Shirt too tight. Funny? I think not. Okay this one no more to talk about. I talk about also no use, sorreh ah.

mum demoralized me early in the morning. At 6 in the morning, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DEMORALIZE ME?! oh yeah wanna know what? She got her head messed up. Cocky, why? Too old. but what am I to say this? I am her child anyways. but yet, madrasah on Sunday for me, oh damn. NO FAIR. but its okay, shows that I still have faith in me but not you guys right? but as long as I study on Saturday, that should be okay, true? eeyer, daddy wanna talk to all of us later. SCARY SHIT SIA. but whatever it is, I shall put it aside. why? because i know what he's gonna talk about. STUDYING and how we are supposed to be concentrating on our work instead of our computer games and websites like Twitter and Facebook and Blogger and Tumblr. Oh wells. but its okay. (: We can manage. manage our own time, really have to. PLAN PLAN PLAN. ARGH. okay reality hits me hard on the head startinggggg last month. I am really not so panicky right now.

eh, I WAS SUPPOSED TO STAYBACK FOR DESIGN AND TECH. Not yet done. I need glueing, and acrylic nailing, and filing and lacquering an loads of other things. Oh presentation board. THREE SOMEMORE. Geography test on Monday. Wah, loads of notes to do manscxz. next year, I really have to start early. I really really really have to. I desperately NEED to go sec five believe me. oh yeah really. uh-huh. And Mr Quek's wish is SCARY. why scary? because he wants the Sec 5N2 pupils to be like top pupil leh. N2 KNOW! Yeah. must be confident and all, but how to when demoralized right? sickening.

OFF TO BATHE AND THEN GOODBYE! :D


isnt it funny?

HELLO! dear people. uhm yeah, see as top. Salam Lebaran eh. why the not-updating-on-the-day-itself? because I AM EXHAUSTED BY THE FIRST NIGHT. believe me. First night and K.O for me. what more the other days like Sat and Sun? hahaha. okay really though. so like yeah, where do I start? uhm lemme seeeeeeeeeeee. so long eh see see? okay la okay la. update! :D

on the First day of raya, after the sembahyang and mintak maaf, straight to Holland. yeah, Holland. Block FOUR. :D Uh-huh. AWESHUMMMMMMMMM. camwhored like mad. non-stop clicks and flashes and poses and laughter and smiles and all. Its fun, like super fun. :D heheheh. ngehhhhhhh. so like yeah. reached Holland at twelve. out of Holland at 4 i think. :O after that headed down to someone else's house. i forget. and then another and another and then home.

reached home, cousins all here. guess whut? all of them, excluding two. so maybe not all. SOME OF THEM. hehehe. satu-satu da maju siolscxz. so disgusting. and a DSLR WAS THERE TOO! :D Camwhore like nobody's business. serious. but nothing beats the D90. hehehehe. :D oh really. nothing beats it. true whuut. okay maybe have ah, but FOR MY OPINION, its better with the D90.

Just because you got a girlfriend and a boyfriend, doesnt mean you can come to my house and you know, SHOW OFF. nonsense. please la. where were you when WE needed you? nowhere wo be found. tried emailing, tried contacting, tried everything. But nothing worked. Why? because you dont care. Its your mother what i'm talking about. your own blood, your own flesh. your own mother. MOTHER KNOW! not anyone else, your mother. seriously, its getting me superrrrr pissed. stop it please. I MEAN IT. stop ignoring her, or us. or whatever it is. you owe her too much, and you know it. sekali die tuntut kat akhirat amacam? nak? TAU MALU TAK?!??!!???!!! okay no more. :D too tired to nag already. really really.

so after that, we still had people coming over, or not. i dont know, i forgot. Thanks eh Sarah, say only wanna story telling, but in the end the whole masalah/situation you forget. WAIT, not situation. EVENTS. eh right, the proper choice of word. :D right. okay okay. so after that, what happened? oh, second day. Second day was funney. why? I dont know.

oh yes, second day was awesome. met my dearest Nur Dini at Ang Mo Kio, same color. PURPLE ALL THE WAY! :D hehehehe. then she came over. at my house till one in the morning. h my, WII ALL THE WAY! :D Screamed and shouted and cursed and laughed. oh happy people we are. ('= hehehehe. videos after videos. macam rumah sendiri la akhirnye. :D hahahaha. really! enjoy till sweat like shit ah please.

third day was SCARY BUT AWESOME! :D why? first, see the pictures on top. yep, you guessed it, CAMWHORE, PURE CAMWHORE. (: uh-huh. ('= awesome. secondly, visitors after visitors after visitors. 5 short hours of visitors coming in and out of my house. Walked around and all, like non stop. went home only at like 11. Nyai Empah's house and then Makati District's house. YEAH BABY! :D heheheheh, sparkles like one small kid. chilhood deprived ='D hah. okay okay.

then after that, Monday night out again. Maknurjanah's house and Wak Nur Bayah's house. what did we do there? Saw the pesilat, Rabia'tul Adawiyah. PRETTY SIA! :D but walk like man. no offense. and thennnnnnnn, oh. Finally catched up with Abang Farudrazi. or something like that. Same-same la. taught us a lot of things, hehehhe. police techniques or something like that. home at eleven again.

so yeah. School in, again. Fuck the EOY Holidays. 1 more subject to pass to make it to Poly. Study hard sarah, I need sec 4 badly. and then, no more slacking and start studying. uh-huh. I heard its scary. what more O Levels, right? )'= but hang in there. If they can, we can too. Beat them, get better. Cheyyyyyyyy. Like macam paham only eh. ='D but I NEED SEC FOUR AND THEN SEC FIVE. I really really really need to! ngehhhhh. I shall strive this time round, really.

uhm, long enough right? wait, not yet complete. today sucked, and went by okay, I THINK. uhm, badminton, and then there was Physics after school. Malay Dance with PEPS after that. MY CARD ISNT WORKING. D:< I AM NOT HAPPY. seriously. HOW COULD IT?! and I owe the library 4 dollars, HOW ABOUT THAT?! I shall show here the letter tomorrow. SHE OWE ME A LOT LA PLEASE. DDDDD'= ngeh. I shall cry. okay bye.

dear eyes, please stay open.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! :D SKATER DUDES! :D WOOHOO!




EH HIIIIIIIIIIIIII! :D ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG. guess what people? RAYA TOMORROW! :D fun aint it? like duh. gluttons for life we shall be. hahaha. seriously though. eat and eat and eat. and drink, and drink and more drinking. and then eat again, and walk, and cry and lots of stuffs. I SHALL REJOICE TOMORROW! :D Like finally right? freedom, and laughter, and sadness and camwhore, and i dont know. A LOT. :> woo hoo. glutton for life. right.

oh so anyways, SELAMAT HARI RAYA EH! :D To those whom Ive like uhm lemme see. find fault with, or used the wrong choices of words in you or the way i talk insulted you or whatsoever, be it online or real life, deeply, SUPER SORRY! Please forgive me. untung eh orang yang tak pernah saya jumpa. Takya kasi duet raya. :> Hehehe. Stay happy yo! and enjoy. ((:

so yeaah. lemme seeeeeeee. two nights back. everyone all crammed their eyes to do the Ketupat. hahaha. freaking failed at it till yesterday. HOW AWESOME! :D I finally managed to anyam my own ketupat. WITHOUT HELP!! :D YAY ME. eh, thich skin. but really. after all, what my mum said stings.

"ape nak jadi dengan masyarakat kite? semue pn tak tahu, makbapak yang kene spoonfeed. ape ni? what will become of our tradition? hapus jugak la like this."

seriously, like i come to think back, and believe me, its really very saad. at least a nineteen year old guy knows how to make the Pineapple Tarts. and its like the ORIGINAL ONES. not the rolled up ones or anything. And at first i though a guy his age dont even bother. proved me wrong. so all you peple who dont know the traditional cookies or cakes or whatsoever, do go and learn from your parents. seriously.

and whats up with the burn-a-Quran day?! sheeeesh. its like freaking retarded. and besides, for the love of my religion, Why burn a Quran? how about WE burn your bible? wouldnt that be fun? zomg, i just found out that amusing. PRETTY AMUSING BY THE WAY. its so cool. wtf. please eh. say only you wanna end the wars and here you are trying to like burn a Qur'an? woah, really man, no humanitarian at all. hypocrites. totally. and my fluent sarcasm is really very thick here. sheeesh. please stop the war, its really not pleasing. AT ALL. in fact, it really sucks. so ditch it, go and get a healthier life. hahaha. uhm lemme see. burnign books = more oxygen = air polution = thinner protective layer = hotter earth= KILLING AND MURDERS = more people talking = hotter air = die= no existence. get my drift yet? D'= haiyo.

oh yeaah, okay okay. so like yeah. sahur and then the stay up till 6. my attempts on not sleeping till 9 routine did not go very very very well. super distraught, i think. uhm lemme guess eh. so yeaah. slept at seven, woke up at nine, and then jaga api till one, and then mum got home. carried to heavy pails containing the ketupats, ALL BY MYSELF. heavy know, felt like breaking my backbone. D'=

SO TIRED I am SOOOOOO TIIIIIREEEEEED. zomg, fatigue leh. tomorrow g sembahyang also fatigue. seek forgiveness also fatigue. but when it comes to camhore, I DONT THINK I SHALL BE FATIGUE! :D

eh wait, who is excited for raya? for all I know, im kind of only. just because I can wake up later and eat more faster. ='D omg, im craving right now. for cookies. riiight. so many things happening at twitter, it feels awesome! so awesome i feel like dying! hahah. okay okay. BYE! :D

Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims out there. Im always with you, beside you, praying for you. We are strong, are we not? What say you? So mintak maaf kepada sesiapa yang telah saya khinatti, or dengki, or maki, or treated badly, or anything that hurts you all. I am so very very very sorry, I shall try to contain myself the next time. Waaaah, all can eat already eh! So stay happy, enjoy hari raya, forgive and forget, cry to your heart's content, say your apologies, be joyful, embrace and love another, and ENJOY! :D Sayang korang. (:

FML, FML, FML.

seriously, fml.

stupid SOB. its good enough i worked my ass off to get it done, and here you are telling me that it aint nice?! dude, seriously?! nothing better to do so go anyhow complain ah? NBCB LA KAOPEI. sumpah ah. keep up with this attitude, I swear, when the time comes, my revenge on you shall be damn sweet. DAMN SWEET AND EPIC I TELL YOU! watch out eh. do one more time I swear. something AWESOME is gonna happen on you. susah-susah orang goreng la, abe kau bleh setakat ape? kate yang ni tak lawa?! Eh. siape yang susah payah ni buat kuih goyang ni? alamaaaaak. Arse pe kau? Im tired. I feel sick. and here you are making my life more miseerable than I already am?! I still have to think how to get the kuih into the big bottles okay. and here you are saying that she's gonna critisize me?! YOU ALREADY HAVE CRITISIZED ME ENOUGH. seriously ah. dont make me hate you now, asshole. Raya coming, and this is what you're doing?! FUNNY IS IT?! just because we aint near the forgiving part doesnt mean that you can anyhow make me feel like one sadist okay. its good enough you got like a daughter who still wanna make something for idk. any occasion. and here you are making me fuck my life upside down inwards out. Thanks ah. really. I seriously feel that if I become sadist pun cukup bagus la tu. takya nak rase hurt ni sume. -.-

i put my hands up in the air sometime.

HAHAHAHA. right. another post. too bored. wait. NEED TO RIGHT! :D okay okay.

oh yeaaaah. so after my birthday, things got out of control, I think. uhm lemme guess. yeaaah. things got waaaay out of control. okay okay.

29 August : Madrasah, again. so had fun. tired. complained, procrastinated.

3o August : physics paper, 15/25. maths paper. SUCKED. new geography teacher eh? hehehe. awesome shingscxz. anything else? lemme see. uhm. naaaah.

31 August : Teacher's day. seniors came back. Aces day. kick-boxing. hahaha. lessons after that. performance-cum-academy awards after that. screamed like mad. home. didnt go out. granduncle passed away in the morning. reached home. sleeeeeeeep. wake up, ready to go already. break fast there. talked and catched up. oooooooh. cousin going NYC. why? just to catch Justin Bieber. HAHAHAHA. fantastic. BUT IT ISNT FAIR! I ALSO WANNA GO LA. like hello, its NYC okay! hahaha. dad explained a lot about NYC to her. tempted bodoh! okay okay.

1st September : Slept till like i dont know. one in the afternoon maybe? ('= hahaha. awesome siaaa. tdo je! okay okay. woke up and play badminton eh? oh yeaaaaaah. badminton with the guys. HAHA. awesome siolscxz. then after that. reached home. sleep some more. daily routine.

2nd September : Back to school. )': Oh man, regretted manscxz. should school close from the friday till like this whole week? only than shall it be epic. but oh wells. uhm BORING LAR. dont worry.

3rd September : uhm lemme seeeee. so eager to go home. liike duhhhh. hahahaha. got too tired, so slept the whole day, not even bothering about anything. reach home, sleeeeeeep some more.

4th Spetember : slacked all the way ah please. dont bother asking me to explain.

okay! so today aye?

remedial at ten.. THIRTY. ended at like eleven THIRTY. oh wait, buka dulu. okay back! hahaha. slacked with Rahul till idk. one plus? inside the bus. 941. same bus, same seat, same person. awesome. killed time like nobody's business. poked Rahul. rahul poked me. )': oh yeaaaah. screamed and squirmed and shouted and slapped and pinched and punched and smacked. HAHAHA. okay best.

done done done. finally, isnt it long enough? HAHAH. goood enough ehhhh. I shall update more soon. after Raya on the first day, okay? Busy, camera woman whaaat. HAHAHA. okay bye!


HELLO PEOPLE. I know, it had been awhile. hasnt it? im sorry. im lazy. hahahaha. busy okay! so an update I shall begin. um lemme see. too long never update, lost already. hahaha. i shall try my very best, okay? here goes.

uhm, so yeaah. lets start from yesterday, shall I? out with Nur Namirah on her birthday. (: AWESOME. hot guys, and hot dance routines, and what else? oh yeaaaah. 4 levels of Forever 21 and the awesome girl! hahaha. yeaaaah.

Red Hill station at one. Suntec City at one thirty. watched some dance competition. The Ultimate Dance Showdown or something like that. totally awesome. like we were too excited till we didnt even bother to sit down. how awesome. hahahaha. sick dance moves, and sick people. scream till my lungs feel like collapsing. and my throat hurts more this time round. )': hahaha.

but its okay. humid weather and dried up throats. thanks ah. oh yeah, back aches. so after the performances, we went in straight, walked around, went in to Rubi, and then saw things we all liked. after that, headed down to Promenade station, and then to Dhoby Ghaut. ^___^ hehehehe. so from there, we went up to Somerset. :D

FUCK YEAH! seriously, awesome shit. SO MEGA HUGE! :D hahahaha. walked around, splurge a little more and then off home. Diva, Uniqlo, Forever 21, A LOT. walked too much till my feet still hurts till now.

waited for her bus, bus 70o, was like waiting for the sky to fell, literally. after like 4 106 buses left and a few more 77 have passed by, only then did 700 hundred appeared. -.- skater dudes, and cute kids. AWESOME! :D reached home at 7. left me laptop on, luckily no battery loss. what am I saying? hehehe. but enjoyed myself.

okay! so an update is sone. there shall be another update. note, that this is supposedly yesterday's post. )': SORRY.

i lack the posts, dont I?
update one more time, i shall.
who's prepared for raya now?
IM NOT!
)':
hahahaha.
ANOTHER POST. dont you worry. after this post. right the instant. ((:
STAY TUNED. chey.
i dont know if I still remember how to update. OH NOSCXZ. okay bye. NEW POST, BETTER, I HOPE. ^^